I don’t understand how you call yourself a boyfriend, a husband, a father, or a friend.

I’m sick of it. Go fuck around with someone else’s sister, go mooch off of someone else, go ruin someone else’s life. Grow the fuck up. I’ve given up so much for you. Yeah, I’m crazy but you’re so much worse than me and you remind me constantly of each and every little thing that I do wrong. I don’t do ANY of this shit to you. Take your constant need to get fucked up and take your beg-steal-borrowing ass somewhere else. I’m sick of taking the heat for you, I’m sick of taking shit for you from my family, and I’m sick of standing up for you. I’m done. Don’t call me Dot. I’m now just the mother of one of your two children, I’m not your lover, I’m not your friend. Ya know I just told my best friend off for calling you my “backstabbing boyfriend” only for you to turn around and stab me in the back. Wtf dude?

The saddest thing is that you can’t even get up the fucking balls to tell me what the fuck was going on when I caught the two of you. The one time anything like that EVER happened with me I told you right away. It’s not like I was fucking around with a guy in bed NEXT TO YOU for two hours. I shared a drunken .02 second kiss with someone during a cry-fest over our best friend dying. I beat myself up over it, told you and Alex as soon as I was out of jail to do so. You can’t even be honest with me. “If something was going on it was a sleep thing”?! I rolled over and both of you had WIDE OPEN eyes. Wtf is wrong with you?

To Sandi,

Ian and I never reacted negatively toward Jason. I was just trying to tell her something without betraying my boyfriend’s trust. (Which I failed at) I clarified ALL OF THAT to she and Jason both. Plus, Ian would have had no room to talk about Jason. It was all about his concern for her daughter, had nothing to do with Jason. I just said “Heed what she says” to your message after reading that he had pretty much called her crazy in front of a room of people and had been making her feel like shit for a few weeks.

My boyfriend and I didn’t react to that at all, it was something completely different. But now the whole thing has blown up in my face and Ian doesn’t talk to me much anymore and Alex has cut me out of her life. The only thing about Jason that was mentioned in that “reaction” was that the things Ian was concerned about weren;t like that before Jason and I very clearly stated that, “we don’t blame that on Jason.”  If anything we reacted negatively to Cory. I made the post private but I still have it if you’d like to read it and haven’t yet.

So please don’t be upset with yourself, Alex, or me. Your post had nothing to do with all of that. I just thought it was about Jason because for a while he was becoming an alcoholic. I did post a post in response to that to Alex but it was only about him making her feel like crap. It had nothing to do with the other thing. I just need to learn to keep my nose to myself and not offer advice to people anymore.

& This would be why crazies like me shouldn’t try to be heroes or help people. I really hate it when my words are misunderstood.

http://gothicladi.tumblr.com/post/23565836262/misunderstandings